love and youth

I am mad

I thought
I would live without memories
Alas I failed
Two days was all I could do without you
I remember
The touch of your neck
The touch of your thigh
The moist compassion of your eyes
I remember
The smell of your bosom
The warmth of your lap
I go mad
Suddenly while at work
While driving a vehicle
While day dreaming
I remember
The feeling of one ness
Your concern for me
Your sayings and feelings
I resolve
To follow
What you said
To know
That you are with me
And I with you
I remember
I am haunted
I am mad
Well
______ that’s it !!!.
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Love to you
I am hurt
My pride is hit
The world has stung again
I need you
My love
I need you
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I miss you lady
I am here
Busy in my schedule
Working from dawn to dusk

But
I miss you lady
I miss you

I get up to the question
Is there any chance to go over today
Can I make it may be in a day or two

A sigh
I don’t think I can
I laze around
I am deep in news mess
I jump up
I am reminded
I did not brush my teeth
One bad habit of mine
That you don’t like
I am off
With the brush in hand
I look at the movie page
Sex movies hot movies adult movies
Movies of folklore movies for star gazing
Movies that move you movies that you slip up
Movies that promise the heaven on earth
You are wasting time and energy
I remember you saying
What good can movie madness fetch you
I tuen the page rather reluictantly
I sit by the table
Its time for bath
My body remembers

The touch of you all over
The care of oil bath anointing
Care for the water not too hot for me
Care for being with me throughout
The smell of wet saree
The smile of my beloved
The sight of bathing beauty

The aroused passions
The heavenly sight
The comely lady that’s mine in spirit

I miss the moment
I hate to bath
All done –a ritual
I come for a meal
Your hand with a morsel
Full of love and affection
The question mark
The annoyed look
The expecting breath
The tasty food confirm if you like

I still remember
It would take nor effort
To make you agree
That I ate with taste
I miss to notice what I eat
I am off to the job dull routine
The nose filter I promise to look around
Dust may spoil my health
Even few minutes
I look up the calendar
May be this weekend may be
It is twelve on a Saturday
I should have been on a bus to you
What am I doing here
I miss you lady, I miss you
The evenings bring loneliness
I hunt around the roads
I sit in a movie hall
To kill time as I only know
I am home
Tired after day
My eyes are closing
But soul can see
I am with you
My head in your lap
A comforting hug
The rocking mother
The loving wife
I love you my lady
I love you TRUE!!!
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COUPLE

Tall and healthy
With views and looks to match
Come together the two
Form distant lands , groups and families
To tie up together
A promise to live together
Happily forever
Each is anxious and tense
Demands they make but unsure
One that demands less
Is sure to secure more
One who is less strident and silent
Will get love and sympathy
For love comes up swelling
For those who suffer silently

Each tries to verbalize
To match routines as best
To scuttle singularities
And stress the common traits
For sure, the last to insist
Shall get the best
For lesser you demand
The more you get
Each is off to one’s work
With a gnawing doubt
Of what it causes the other to feel

Trials and tribulations
Fights and losses
Throw them together
To find solace love and warmth
For to love is to share

Society chips in with its might
Praises one, derides the other
Holds the brief for one
Scuttles the plans of the other
Causes sparks to fly
To strains in the forming bond

An understanding understatement
A willingness to step down
An eager helping hand
Overcome the gaps
Bridges the valleys
For success as a couple
Needs one to lose for the other
The loss Is recouped in ample measure
For the other rushes to compensate

Love is to give to the other
As you expect to be given
Each is eager to place the future
To dream together

A vehicle, a house and
To top, children to share
More the number the better
To try together
For one at a time is the best bet
One tries harder
The other helps him along
Efforts troubles and problems shared
For love is to work for the other

The small mercies
The smiles shared
The silent communion
The questions left out
The demands not made
The expectations fulfilled
The love that overwhelmed
The rushing to one another
Without asking
The comforting arms
The moist eyes
The troubles shared and lived
Planning for the other
Caring for the other
Living for the other
Makes life’s troubles look too small

For couple is one
That finds
Happiness in the other’s happiness
Sorrow in the other’s sorrow
That worries for the other
That works for the other
And makes no demands
For a couple
That expects less from each other
Gets more from each other!!!
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Remembrances

I remember you almost every minute of the day. It is a great strain to spend time from 5 pm to 12 pm. My body aches for you. I seem to smell you and the moments of togetherness swamp me. It is a torture to be so separated from you. I do not know how to get over it and more importantly whether to get over it. The taste of you does not leave my mouth. The smell does not leave my nose. The touch is all too fresh in my body parts and skin to be forgotten. Your works of love and compassion ring in my brain. Your sacrifice for my family and me stares my own selfishness in its face. I feel ashamed to be so selfish and conceited in robbing you day and night. I have not been able to give you anything in return. I pledge my loyalty to you. I love you lady. I love you too strongly to be expressed in words. I want to see you. I want to press my face against your bosom. I want to live again in your embrace.
I want to kiss you from tip to toe. I want to taste your body inside out. I want to be in you and with you always. You are my brightest star, my thickest friend , my soul and heart. My heart and body cries out for you. I pine for you and your love. May be I take out too much from you and our relationship than I put into it. May be my cries of passion anger you but I am sure, the purity of my passion will overtake you, will keep you near me forever.
Each day I debate on what I am doing here. Why I am here. What is it that I intend to achieve? What is it that is keeping me here? The more I debate, the more I feel unhappy and frustrated. What a life is this. Devoid of all forms of love and satisfaction. May be it is my bad deeds of the yore that haunt me so. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you..
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Woman of the future
Holding her own
At fronts unknown
Is the woman of the future
A friendly smile to one and all
A pat for the sprightly underdog
A helping hand for the weak and the young
Staying ahead and yet
Among us all
Is the woman!
The woman of the future
She is the mother to your tiny frame
She is the fountain of love and game
She is the nurse when you grieve
She is there to share your joy
Is the woman!
The woman of the future

She will run the house
She will run the extra mile for you
She will back you up when all is lost
There you will find her
When you need her most
She cuts your problems
Shares the burden
Helps in the work
You turn to her and
She will never let you down
An office in the day
That she adores
Work is play
That she does
Mixes and matches
The problems with answers
She fights the male
In a man’s world

She is bullied
She is battered
With names only men muster
After all the grind
You will still find
The sure touch
The control in the eye
She is the woman
A master in game

One and the other
Come back to her
Demands are many
You will hardly whisper
It is all done
Done in style
Done for you
And one and all
She covers her young
With heart of steel
She comes to engage
The bad and the evil
She is the protector
Of our species
You blame her
You bully her
But you can never succeed
She is true to her road
-------- the chosen path.

I hear him cry
I hear him wail
Of troubles and problems
And how hard life is to be
I turn to her for her story
It is all the same for her
Troubles are to be fought
Hard times to be lived
Scarcity to be managed
Bankruptcy to be saved
She still stays ahead
Ahead of us
She is the woman
The woman of the future

The world runs along
She drums up support
The friends move away
She comes in to help
The others in family sigh ever so often
She is the one to turn to in need
She is the pillar
The corner stone of the house
She is the one who makes the home
She is there, here and everywhere

She is a mother, a wife
And a public servant
She is a friend, a helper
And a benevolent officer
She is the one
The one for future
Tomorrow banks on her
I too, you concur
She is the woman
The woman of the future!!!

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My love

I would smell you from tip to toe
I’d taste your every hollow
In here, in there
My tongue is everywhere
I feel the skin, the heat
And the quiver
I’d explore the wet inners
And special outers
I am in you, on you and around you
I prostrate to the glands
I give in to the wish
I am all for you
And your are mine
Oh! My dearest
You will be mine
I turn a little
I see your face
I know the lips , the taste of ‘em
My tongue is eager to meet yours in a duel
Oh! Can I remember anything else
I watch the dreamy eyes
I jump at the doorways
The colour of your skin
The taste of it, the feeling
Of fullness in my mouth
I remember at the drop of an eyelid
The curved and full shoulders
Which hide a smell so delightful
I yearn to fill my mouth
My nose and leave my prints around
The look of ‘em shoulders is enough
To pull me to you from any place
The bosom I see, full and mighty
The jumping jack on top of it
I touch it I feel it
I’d play with it
The fullness of ‘em I thump and feel
The milky inner
So tasty and full
I try my best to
Stuff them both in
I try the left to loose the right
I try the right to loose the left
I force them both only tips remain
I brush my lips
I cut with my teeth

I roll my tongue all over
One again
I thump my face
I hide deep in them
It forget the world and my self again
The tummy, looks straight at me
What’s the matter you don’t cater to me
Taut and hard with a few rolls at the edge
A sign of hard work and care to control
It falls so steep into the navel so deep
The feel is great
Like running your hand
On a running waters deep
I touch from right
I touch from left
I roll all aound to find
The shape
I pull this way
I push that way
I purse my hand
And purse the fat
I count the tyres
I finger the navel
I taste the navel
Every inch of it
I taste the stomach
Everywhere
I cut with teeth
I hear you scream
I know I know
You like it that much
I go down and bow down
The welcoming hairs
I brush my face and pass them over
I touch the thighs
I feel their strength
I gauze their girth
I twist the muscle
I wonder how strong a female can be
I hide my face,
I taste it all around
I want to fill my body
And my soul
The thighs so grand
That make the world go bland
I train my teeth
I paint a pattern
I squeeze them hard
I put mine in between
And all you to squeeze
I want to merge
My thighs in yours
I squirm and turn
Trying to touch and ‘em full
I try the feet
With a feeling of reverence
I feel so small so selfish to all
The feet that show how hard you work
The fingers the texture
The fissures underneath
All sings of hard work
And of sacrifice
I know my dear
I milk you dry
With little left for you
I don’t know why
You go through the grind
Every morn and night
With nothing to save
For the rainy day
I am selfish
My people more so
We don’t care if you live or die
Is it worth it
Are you foolish
May be not
May be you belong to
A breed unknown
So high and so pure
That exist for me
And me alone
I wish I could
Wash your feet in milk
In panchamruta and feel fulfilled
My tears well up to do the duty
I push ‘em back
To avoid your feeling guilty
I push myself up and go to the swarg dwar
I pull the lips. Inner and outer
I taste them
Fill them in my mouth
I want to stay on
Take that all night
Urged I put in my tongue
I make it dance
In and out
The juices swell
So tasty and sweet
I had my ‘amrit’ for my life
I feel your tugs
Impatient are you
I come back face to face
And enter you ahoy
I am a boy
And you the girl
Let’s play the game
Of ring and fingers
I push it in and wait
Then pull it out and wait
Not out of exhaustion
As you think
To calm the nerves
Lest I let you down
I am in, I am out
And in and out
I squirm and beseech
I tighten the muscles
You pay back
The best compliment
I twitch the bosom
I kiss the lips
I drain in and out
Once and twice
On and on
I tighten and wait
Lo it all got out
So soon is your comment
I feel sorry to have let you down
My energy is drained
I lay prostrate
I wait next to you
For the next round
Once more
Encore!!!.
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My son

I watch him dither along
I watch him prevaricate
I watch him lose direction
I go mad
And yell for him to correct
He stops in his steps
Looks at me to confirm
And corrects the error once again
He eats so less
He takes so long
He is so weak
He can’t prolong
I get mad
I hit him hard
He coughs and weeps
But goes along
He wants to cuddle
He wants lots of love
He’d rather jump away
I put him in place
Show him the pace
Correct his speed
See that he’s in the race
I am called harsh
What a mother you’d make
Everyone calls me names
Some try to save the boy from me
What fools are they
To out-mother a mother
I love him so
I egg him on
I want to see him run and be No.1.!!!
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On the eve of the new year

Standing at cross roads
To see off an old friend
How sad it feels
Right on the soul
Is left the unseen mark
Of sweetness and bitterness
In a mix so unique
Keeping the heart in tact
Was a task indeed
Helped though I was
By the thought of
The fresh breeze
The figure behind the mist
My new friend
The unknown and unseen
And--------- luring !!!.
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Alone with a friend
Alone I walk
Through the long and dreary paths
Oftener than not like a psychopath

I look to you to her and others
For a sweet word and a smile
I think of finding one day
A friend in you ---- in you

Talking with you is my finest hour
Sitting with you my finest time
Thinking of you is spend my time
Indeed you’ve become a part of my day

Awake or asleep seated or working
While amongst people or amongst flowers
I think of you my being with you
How true, I say to myself
Is my being yours
I long for you to say

‘It is for you I wait’
I hope you might say to me
‘I thought of you and I like you’
I yearn that you say to me
‘I am your friend, befriend me’
I think of you my relating to you

When I lost the ground
When I won the row
When it was me everywhere
When I lost myself in the wilderness

It was you who made me sit up
And think of befriending truly
The fairer sex indeed
With you I started planning
To start my lone journey
But to disdain and sourness
I stuck up there –never to start again
I looked to you often
For the friendly smile
I hoped for in vain
For the assuring hand
I longed for through time
For your words ’I like you’

Still alone I think
May be blessed I will be
Not in near at least in far
And look hopingly with
A gleamy eye into yonder
For the moment so pure
When I would find myself in time
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Birth day
Youth the purest of all
Full of vigour and dreams
Of changing the world
Of bringing in the new
Ideals its food
And greatness its goal
Right in the mind
Make possible
The sprouting of new flowers
Hating the established
Hating the established
Loving the blazing
Trial the truth

Comes out alone
But with a message
Of love for humanity
And the great thoughts
That ennoble one and all

Keeping the spirit
So pure and divine
Alive right through life
Is the act—the benevolent and the best

Use my friend
The chance of birth day
To celebrate the joys
To commemorate the gifts
And to propagate the flame
Of purity and love
For one and all
Think not all
Think not alone
For you may repent on the morrow
Do—not the harm
For you may single out yourself
Go—all out for the truth
The only thing eternal
Give ---yourself to service
Your only true friend
Do --not be under the spell of the vicious
For you may hate yourself
Follow these maxims
To the best use of the world
And the great and glorious
To the happiness of us---------
Your friends and family!!!!
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On a rainy day after a long summer

Out of clouds
Big and small
Out of skies
Black and bold
Running and rolling
Falling our of nowhere
Bringing with it
The message and blessing
Of the almighty
Came the drops
To quench the thirst so intense
To being life back to earth
Green and glowing.

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A tribute

They say all are the same
At the age so tender
Dames with self-obsession
Unmindful of the past
Its sacrifices for them
Prophesying the glory
In the yonder
Or predicting a disaster
Always in the gloom
Or losing foot hold on the ground

How happy I was
When I found you to be different person with a vision
With no obsessions
Clear in mind and spirit
Acknowledging benevolently
The help rendered
Remembering the past’s
Sacrifice for your future
Taking in your stride
The distractions so alluring
Not allowing the gloom or the mirth
To obsess you to the neglect of the truth

Right in our midst
Being one among us
Yet keeping your own counsel
I salute you in al reverence
For the rare light of benevolence
I see in you

Let not the future
Hold what it may in store for you
Deflect you from where you stand
Keep in view your interests
And of yours’
And MARCH AHEAD!!!
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Dream

In your lap
I feel secure
In your home
I feel at home
In your talk
I see my goal
In your eyes
I see my whole
In your company
I lost myself
I longed and longed
To make this encounter
Everlasting
But alas
What I could achieve
Was momentary
Real in a moment
Illusion in the other.
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A day

When I started the day
I was out
Full of enthusiasm
Full of vigour
Full of expectations
And with a clear vision of my goal
I travelled and travelled
Under the scorching sun
Not losing the vision of my goal
As the road rolled by
And time sped away
Past me
I came to a stage
Where the enthusiasm
was GONE
Vigour was not to be seen
And the goal started
BLURRING OFF!!!
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To achieve
I heard it once
Aim at the sky you will reach high
Filled and thrilled
Inspired I was
Formulated the goals
Like an artist at the helm
Dreamt of the glory
Like a visionary myself
Exalted I was
To achieve it at last
To leave no stone unturned
Right through the day
Till it was dark
When the zeal waned
And sun set in the west
I murmured to myself
To dream is easy
But ----not to get it!!!
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Sweet nothing

How sweet are those make believe things
The institutions and the systems
Children of the wary brain
Nurtured by selfish self
And out growing to become
An all-encompassing being
How ignorant are its fathers
Feeling secure and dozing off
Under the shadow
Blinded they are
To the truth of him

Each after the other
Worships the brain child
Bequeaths his might
Bemoans not he
Lost freedom and lost self
That is all they feel
That is the ultimate
Until some wary guy
Pulls the trigger
And revolt strikes from the blue
Offsetting the established
And the entrenched
Only to plant another fad
Landing one and all
Blinded as they are
By the sudden turmoil
Further away from light
Into the darkness
Of the sweet make believes
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My life –by a kite

Born of a mix of colours
And of the hands of poor dad
I was but a fanciful creation
Cut in exquisite fashion
Were my different parts
Of care and paper and host others

Mounted on a chain of threads
I was but a feast to eyes
And my size was but the handsome

Each one viewed me with interst
And quizzed the vendor
Some turned back but one took me
The generous and hearty master
Equipped with the sword and stringed
On I was sent into the sky
I enjoyed it all
The gentle touch of breeze
The high position I got
The view of my kind all around
Instructed duly by my master
I raced down to cut off a foe
I screamed aloud
In muy master’s cheers
And touched down to be smashed
I felt proud well I did my job!
Higher I went to boast of my strength
Farther I went for none would stop me
Hither and thither I roamed
Towards one and away from others

At last I found my match
A smaller one of my creed
Humble and sleek in the sky
Raced on my thread and lo!
I was free and father less
Carried off by the ghastly breeze
I jolted when I hit a tree
Lost in the green flesh of it
I couldn’t make out myself
Torn and tarnished
pierced and bleeding
Lost to the eye of one and all
I lay there amongst the lively ones
Unheard and unsung
Unfathered and alone-----
I mourned of my state
Cursed HIM for my fate.!!!